Today

This is how I feel right now....today....

restless |ˈrestləs| adjective
(of a person or animal)unable to rest or relax as a result of anxiety or boredom : the audience grew restless and inattentive. • offering no physical or emotional rest; involving constant activity or motion : a restless night.

unfulfilled |ˌənfoŏ(l)ˈfild| adjective
not carried out or brought to completion : it was his unfulfilled ambition to write. • not having fully utilized or exploited one's abilities or character.

discouraged |disˈkərij; -ˈkə-rij| verb
[ trans. ] cause (someone) to lose confidence or enthusiasm
• prevent or seek to prevent (something) by showing disapproval or creating difficulties
• persuade (someone) against an action

disillusioned |ˌdisəˈloō zh ənd| adjective
disappointed in someone or something that one discovers to be less good than one had believed

This is what I will choose to believe inspite of how I feel right now....today....

Romans 8:28-39 (New International Version)

28And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. 29For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. 30And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.

31What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. 35Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36As it is written:

"For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered." 37No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.